XCENTRIC-ANGEL

The Satin that flows among the hollows of the ground, awakens the deepest thoughts in my mind, so profound. I look at the way the river envoloped and bound, its sourrounding. Music of its universe, made me break out in this poetic verse! I envy thee, who seekth such beauty and find, cause my heart craves to be part of the divine of this kind! The golden hue of light that shines, falls on my thoughts in my mind. The strenght of trees standing tall, makes me want to be love and fall into an abyss of blissfull peace, among the river and the trees! Courtesy of the beautiful picture taken by Naveen Yadav, that has inspired me to write this short poem. Thank you Naveen!!

What does it mean to not feel anything? To numb the pain that is caused because you felt too much? I have seen break ups in my life, and I have seen friends going through this torturous thing. But what I haven't realized is that, why people need answers to find closure in a relationship? Yes, granted that we have loved that special someone for one, maybe two, maybe more, years. And we expect that, that special someone actually cares about what we feel. But the truth is in a dying relationship, no one actually cares. I mean come on, if they did, why would it die in the first place?? So when we love we love completely...blah blah blah. But when things go wrong, like for instance, your boyfriend/girlfriend cheats on you...or when they act differently to a very crucial situation you are facing, it's taken that the relationship is going to the dogs. When the going gets bad, believe you me, the bad doesn't get going. It only gets worse. And when that happens we say the words, ...

Every time a tear drop falls, I tell myself never again will it happen. I hug myself and promise the universe, no matter what I will not hurt again. But love makes it so hard for me to hold back all the memories & emotions that flow from my eyes. I keep quiet, listening to my heartbeat slowly. I feel the pain in my chest, but a smile covers my face! How ironic life can get? But we still believe in it. One door closes, a window opens, they say. But in a room with no windows, do we breath, do we stay alive or do we die? I don't deserve this love-less state of mind! Patiently, I waited all these years, believing you would come to me, in a dream, like a dream, like a ray of sunshine through the dark night! I smile at the sight of you, a tune struck a cord in my heart, and I begin to dance! Dancing my pain away? No, a welcome dance. A dance to fresh pain, for a new tear drop on my cold cheek. I stand still now, I suddenly realize that my heart is under an attack. Open, my heart is ...

Confused confounded soul! Where forth does this arise? Has the heart betrayed the mind? Or has the mind has gone on a journey unknown? Confused, I wander, with you my soul, Lord help me not to commit mistakes so low! I wander about, lost on this path confusion, not knowing where I am headed, it's all but an illusion. Soul, my sweet soul, lose the confusion, before I lose myself in this confounded emotion! Love! they say...Hmmm...I wonder if this is the reason, why my heart betrayed my mind, and committed this treason? Oh my poor soul, I command you not, but now I cannot lose this battle that I have fought. So ignore this confusion and this confounded emotion, lets walk together, my soul, just you and I, so that no treason could ever be committed of the heart, and an end can be put to the confusion of this confounded emotion!

Oh Sunshine, shining through the window of life, you shine so bright! From the bare whisper of dawn, to the hustle bustle of the dusk, you come into our lives to burn, to bury the cold dark nights without lovers warmth! You surround me with your light, giving me everything that is pure! Oh Sunshine, stay a while till the end of time, shine like you always do, through the window of life!!

I see the way your face lights up as soon as you see her enter the room, Like a thousand lights, like when firecrackers stain the night sky! I wish you would look at me that way, I wish you smile the same way you do when you see her take your hand in hers. I stand beside you, waiting patiently for that day to come, When I could take your hand in mine and ask you to dance. I wish you held me close to your heart like you are holding her now, I wish I could feel your breath on my neck and let you feel me in your heart. You share your deepest feelings with me, yet you love someone else. How can I sacrifice the love I feel for you? How can I not feel what I feel? Should I walk away and let you love someone else? Or should I wait, and hope you feel that way about me someday too? It hurts to see you hold and kiss her the way I would want you to kiss and hold me. But what am I supposed to do? Just sacrifice my love for you!

I look at you from across the room A smile covers your eyes of gloom. I wonder who would hurt your heart Who would ever leave your love and part? I know that I am no one to judge your past But my heart is falling for you, so fast. I try to help myself and look away, So that someone else may find me and make my heart sway. But you look at me, with a smile caressing your lips And I feel drawn to you, and my heart slowly gives. I let the feeling flow into my veins, And hope that it will not leave me insane. Oh why do we need to follow rules? If all it does is leave us blue. A friend takes my hand and asks me to dance, Should I be happy or sad or elated at this chance? I try to smile back at you and leave, Though my feet walk away, my chest heaves. I search your eyes for an answer, But your eyes give nothing away. My heart cries out to you, You then look away, the thing you always do. Can’t we just unleash the feelings we have? Or are we scared that we may drift apart? I will wait, till yo...