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I am My Best Friend!

Vrooom....I take off on my kinetic Honda every time I feel low. I go window shopping, eat at a near by confectionery, walk around and maybe buy something small, like a lipstick. Soon I start feeling better. Has this ever happened to you? I'm sure it has. Have you had people tell you not to do something and you have this voice inside you that tells you to calm down, just listen to them and then walk away without saying anything? Yes there is this queer inner voice, that tells you its going to be OK, because you are what you are. Have you ever felt lonely? Desperate need to talk to someone, feel the love you need? Have you spent night crying yourself to sleep, just because to think no one loves you? Its a common problem that effects one and all, sometime or the other in life. We think so much about other people. What they say, what they think, what they feel, seems to effect us more than anything else in this world. A need to feel accepted by society. But why? End of the day, who is

26 Year Old RJ!

I will not say I am a 20 something girl. I am going to tell you I am 26. I don't go by the cliche that a woman must never reveal her age. Because I am proud of each and every year I spent on this earth. I am not going to say that I have struggled all my life and achieved what ever I have now with a lot of hard work. But I am definitely going to say that these 26 years of my life have shown me what life had to offer and where I could negotiate with life. It also made me realise that people no matter what they do are always insecure about themselves. I have learnt that when a person lives in the past his future becomes a dream which he thinks he cannot achieve. But the important thing is to live in the present. Because everything happens Now! I have had my share of hardships. I have had my heart broken more than once. I have seen my dreams come true and then dissolve like mist. I have seen love pass me by. I have learnt that nothing comes to us that easily. We need to work really har

Elated!

Beep Beep went my phone late last night. I had to get up early in the morning, and so I was contemplating on checking the sms. Because once I start replying to one sms, they start flowing till I lose all sleep. But women are curious creatures. I picked up my phone and was surprised to see an sms from my ex-boss. Quickly opening the sms, I see a single word, 'Congrats'! Congrats? I wondered. Why is she congratulating me? I thought. So I replied back asking her what the congratulations were for? The wait for the next sms sent various thoughts in my head. Was I going to be given a promotion? Ah, that is highly unlikely, I thought. Then I thought that she knew something which I had no clue about. But what? I mused. Beep Beep. Ah! finally a message. I hurriedly picked up the phone and opened the message. I read it. I read it again slowly. I didn't know how to react. Did I really? Or is she playing with me? "What happened?", mom asked seeing my expression change to a

Eternal Flames

The smile on your lips Ignites the untapped desire deep within my heart. All these years I have refused to see the passion burning in your eyes. You touch me with the heat of the rising sun which burns each part of me. So warm like blood that rushes into your face, after the first kiss! Mysterious words of love you whisper through your eyes, spoken with a desire so intense. How can I refuse such love, such passion you have for me? Come and take me away, I am but yours. My love for you is a deep emotion, I have never felt before! Let me then ignite this fuel called Love, and let my heart burn in these Eternal Flames!

Can't Blame The Hormones!

Slam the door hard of their faces ! My head reels, the voice becomes louder and louder. Come on, do it. Slam the door . I resist the voice, my anger raising within me. I close my eyes, trying to think of something pleasant. I feel the anger abate slowly. Teenagers they say, feel surges of anger or any emotion strongly. They say that the Hormones that are at work during their age causes this to happen. They relate bad behaviour, eccentricity, bad sense of dressing and mostly everything they do, to this fact. In the seven years of my adolescent life, I have learnt that if you let your Hormones rule you, then you will never win your parents over. So I tried, real hard, to keep my strong overflowing emotions at bay. But no matter how hard I tried, they irrupted once in a while. Which was not so bad, considering that my peers let them run loose. Slowly, but steadily, I could control my out bursts of anger. That's when I realised I had it in me to control not only my emotions but my l