Nothingness.

There are so many things I want to write about. But sometimes I don't find the words to write about what I feel. Sometimes I wonder if I do feel. No, its not a negative thing. And its not depression. Its just a phase of
Nothingness.

Its a phase when you think of the most irrelevant things like, why is the bald guy actually bald or how can I walk through a wall, or is there a place on earth where one can float, etc. Sometimes they don't make any sense at all. Sometimes it like the only place in your mind you want to be in.

I have heard that men have this place more than women do. They are capable of not thinking. They can just sit and stare into oblivion and not have a single thought in their minds. I wonder why women cannot do this. Is it because we are more intelligent and hence have more thoughts? Or is it because Men have lesser things to worry about? I may not be right to make such assumptions. But I am entitled to my opinion, ain't I?

Taking about opinions, everybody's got one. I mean your folk's have got one, your friends, your co-workers, your boss, even your maid seems to have one. The funny part is that, the opinions are all about you. How you should do this and that. Its never about themselves. Its always about you. You see, people feel a great need to express themselves through opinions. Not that they wont do the exact same thing that they are giving you an opinion about. But they, for a brief moment, forget their mundane existence and feel like they have to tell you how wrong you are, so that they can feel better about themselves. And worst of all since opinions don't cost at all, they give them to you in abundance.

Speaking of costs, have you seen how everything has changed, because a bunch of people who were meant to take care of the world's economy, realized that they were not good at it? I mean even companies that make a lot of money (enough to run the world) behave like they are poppers. I mean its not their fault. Mankind was built in a way that says, if you have something which everybody needs, keep it hidden. Sharing is unheard of. Ok well. We do share, but its because if we don't then when we need something we may not get it later on. So you see its all nothing but a game. A game of deceit.

Anyway, the sense of hiding gives me a lot to think about. All of us have something we want to hide from the world. Ok, so not all of us are psychopaths. But we all hide from ourselves most of the time. We want to have secrets we can dwell on in the recesses of our minds. Its natural. We do not understand a lot of things about our existence or of who we really are. Hence a secret can be very enticing, it almost makes our mundane life very interesting in our heads.

But when we really look at all of this, its nothing. Its not important. Its not life changing. Its not going to make your day any better. Because its Nothingness. We all live in it, we breath in it, we die in it. There is so much more of Everything that we cannot see, feel or even sense. We never get there. We cannot get there. We want to get there, but we always find an excuse. Nothingness is all consuming. Nothingness is always more tempting. Nothingness is what it is. And to Nothingness we return.

by, Teja Priyadarshini

END OF THE WORLD! REALLY??

Its been a long time since I have put my thoughts down. There have been many magical moments the last year, and this year too has started off on a good note. The lessons I have learnt are many. I am sure all of you have also been through many ups and downs last year, and started this year with a hope that it will be better than the last. 


But as soon as this year started I have been listening to people talking about the "end of the world" this year. Nostradamus has made predictions which give these assumptions life. The more we think about the end of the world I think we are bringing it closer. 


The predictions are many. They say the Mayan's calender ends in 2012 because they predict the world will end. Nostradamus, a french prophet, predicts the end of the world in 2012. Included among 2012 predictions is the belief that there is a 12th planet in our solar system whose orbital path comes close to earth every 30 million or so years.  If it doesn't hit us they say, the gravitational pull of this planet will cause massive destruction on earth that we will not recover from.  They say that because of this, 2012 will be the end of the world.


There are other predictions like the Armageddon. The Armageddon is the prediction of an ultimate war between good and evil that the Bible speaks of.  It is a war that God himself will step in and end.  Even those who do not believe in the Bible believe that the way the world is going, we are headed for a final conflict that will bring an end to most of not all civilization. 


Apocalypse is different to Armageddon. It is the English version of the Greek word apokalupsis. Apokalupsis is translated as "revelation" in the book of Revelation in the Bible. It means "lifting of the veil". However, the word Apocalypse has historically taken on the meaning of "the terrible judgements foretold to happen at the end of Man's rule on Earth" which are described in that book.

Thus, "The Apocalypse" is another term for the book of Revelation, as well as the series of events described in the book of Revelation.  Apocalypse is also a technical term for a certain type of biblical prophecy. An apocalyptic passage in the Bible is viewed as a prophecy describing events that will surely come to pass, and thus cannot be affected by the choices made by men. One of those events is the battle of Armageddon.


NASA regularly monitor solar (sun) activity and can even predict general cycles showing when the most likely time will be for larger flares.  In a general way, these predictions are reasonable reliable.  But do their predictions include an extra big flare on December 21, 2012?  With what certainty can NASA tell us that a solar flare will bring the end of the world in 2012? 


It is claimed that on December 21, 2012 there will be some form of mystical astronomical alignment with the center of our galaxy.  One version of this theory says that the alignment occurs when the sun rises above the horizon on December 21st 2012 (the winter solstice) at which point the sun will rise in the middle of the milky way, thus causing an alignment between the earth sun and the galactic center.  

While astronomy programmes appear to verify this, there are however some serious problems with building a case for the end of the world in 2012.

Some believe that humanity was genetically "seeded" by a superior alien race.  They believe that in 2012 this race are going to come back and do a number of things such as rescue us from self destruction, bring us enlightenment and so on...  There are also some who believe that they will simply help us destroy ourselves.


Some time ago, a number of people committed suicide as a comet was passing by earth because they believed an alien space craft was hidden behind the comet and the way to be transported on to it and transformed into a new form of existence was to take their lives at that time.  It was a tragedy.  

What do you think? Do you think that any of these will really happen? I hope not. Because I have plans for my future and I would hate to see it ruined.

by, Teja Priyadarshini

THOUGHTS

So many thoughts in my mind

So many questions I need answers to

So many hours I waste sitting

So many minutes spent waiting

The final cut to the scene

The final hour of the day

Left with nothing to think

Left with nothing to work my way with

Waiting endlessly for a reason

Waiting forever for something new

Days go by without a shape

Days slip away into years

How long will this go on?

How long will it keep me alive?

Living without a dream

Living without an aim in life.

by, Teja Priyadarshini

DREAM STATE OF MIND

Familiar places, familiar lanes.

Memories lost, memories gained.

A feeling of belonging.

A feeling of deep longing.

A dream land, in a funny mind.

Of places seen, of places been.

Of jumping off buildings.

Of happy joyful tidings.

A heart set, on a heart met

Of love lost and love gained

A face I see

A face I want to be.

Of dying, of flying

Of living and running

A dream that makes me smile

A dream that makes me go a mile.

Of skies of color, a sky on fire

Dreaming of days not so dire

A dream can take you away

or it can show you a way.

Choose what you like

Choose what you might

A dream state of mind

is just one of its kind!

by, Teja Priyadarshini

CONFUSION

Clouded, foggy, my mind wonders,

why in life we make such blunders.

Can anyone know what they want,

and do they find what they have sought?

What do people really look for?

Do we always want some more?

When confusion rules our heart,

do we really do our part?

We give so much of ourselves

In the end we sound our own death knell.

Tired and exhausted we lie down,

Angry and prejudiced, on a little mound.

What did we expect of life,

and what did it turn out to be?

On emotions one has no control.

But we die with a tainted soul.

by, Teja Priyadarshini