XCENTRIC-ANGEL

I hesitate. I'm very apprehensive. I look around me. I look over my shoulder to make sure there is no one or nothing that is following me. I don't want to go on alone, but I have no choice. It is my war, my territory I have to save. Looking back I see the golden sun that tempted me to embark this journey. 26 years now. I wait. Still. Patiently. Breathing slowly now. Anxious, my palms start to sweat. I wipe them dry on my clothes. I wait. Time! I think of it. 26 years! I have seen time, felt it too. It is a delicate thing, this time. Always slips away when you try to hold it. Moments in time, I try and recollect, are so faded now that it feels like a dream. Moments in time, I wonder. Moments. Small moments of joy, of sadness. A lot has happened these 12 months. Lot of emotions. Lot more is the feeling of numbness. I wait. I get more anxious now, to see how it starts. I always wait, when this time comes. I stand there, with palms sweating, recollecting the past and sketching the ...

What is it about life? We smile when we don't want to. We answer questions even when our lips barely want to move. We look excited when our insides scream for some quiet. I hardly know what life wants out of me? I am not expecting life to give me anymore than it has given me. A caring family, lovable friends, and an intelligent mind. But there is a void inside my soul, which I can't quite understand. Man, they say, is a species that has always wanted more than he has. There is an old story that says that, when God asked man what he wanted, he said he wanted the sight of an eagle, the agility of a leopard, the strength of a lion, and the wise mind of an owl. So be it, God had said. But the animals knew what man actually acquired - the virtue of Greed! Why am I telling you this? Well, I feel the same want. Though its not materialistic, a want is a want, none the less. I want to know what it will take to fill the void inside my soul. I want to know where I am headed. I want to kn...