XCENTRIC-ANGEL

Confused confounded soul! Where forth does this arise? Has the heart betrayed the mind? Or has the mind has gone on a journey unknown? Confused, I wander, with you my soul, Lord help me not to commit mistakes so low! I wander about, lost on this path confusion, not knowing where I am headed, it's all but an illusion. Soul, my sweet soul, lose the confusion, before I lose myself in this confounded emotion! Love! they say...Hmmm...I wonder if this is the reason, why my heart betrayed my mind, and committed this treason? Oh my poor soul, I command you not, but now I cannot lose this battle that I have fought. So ignore this confusion and this confounded emotion, lets walk together, my soul, just you and I, so that no treason could ever be committed of the heart, and an end can be put to the confusion of this confounded emotion!

Oh Sunshine, shining through the window of life, you shine so bright! From the bare whisper of dawn, to the hustle bustle of the dusk, you come into our lives to burn, to bury the cold dark nights without lovers warmth! You surround me with your light, giving me everything that is pure! Oh Sunshine, stay a while till the end of time, shine like you always do, through the window of life!!

I see the way your face lights up as soon as you see her enter the room, Like a thousand lights, like when firecrackers stain the night sky! I wish you would look at me that way, I wish you smile the same way you do when you see her take your hand in hers. I stand beside you, waiting patiently for that day to come, When I could take your hand in mine and ask you to dance. I wish you held me close to your heart like you are holding her now, I wish I could feel your breath on my neck and let you feel me in your heart. You share your deepest feelings with me, yet you love someone else. How can I sacrifice the love I feel for you? How can I not feel what I feel? Should I walk away and let you love someone else? Or should I wait, and hope you feel that way about me someday too? It hurts to see you hold and kiss her the way I would want you to kiss and hold me. But what am I supposed to do? Just sacrifice my love for you!

I look at you from across the room A smile covers your eyes of gloom. I wonder who would hurt your heart Who would ever leave your love and part? I know that I am no one to judge your past But my heart is falling for you, so fast. I try to help myself and look away, So that someone else may find me and make my heart sway. But you look at me, with a smile caressing your lips And I feel drawn to you, and my heart slowly gives. I let the feeling flow into my veins, And hope that it will not leave me insane. Oh why do we need to follow rules? If all it does is leave us blue. A friend takes my hand and asks me to dance, Should I be happy or sad or elated at this chance? I try to smile back at you and leave, Though my feet walk away, my chest heaves. I search your eyes for an answer, But your eyes give nothing away. My heart cries out to you, You then look away, the thing you always do. Can’t we just unleash the feelings we have? Or are we scared that we may drift apart? I will wait, till yo...

Why do we wait and wait and then make all the wrong choices? Are we waiting for a fairy tale to actually start or are we at the end of the road where there is no ‘happily-ever-after’? We try to be cool and think it is worth the wait. And that we will find the special ‘some one’ soon. But we actually realize we were waiting for a sign as bright as a car headlight glaring at us in the dark! We get lonely and then tears can’t wait any longer. The tears too can’t wait and come running down the sides of our face. Time is running out now. The tears have dried too, but could we really lose what we could never have? Are some things meant to be, like the song of the Lark or the beat of a broken heart? Are we ever going to see a sign as blinding as the morning sun or an arrow that says, here is where you turn? How do you know if someone belongs to you, when all you can do is wait…wait till we see a sign or wait till we are hit by a bus of love. And then some where in a beautiful cover paged book...

When people talk, do they always say what is on their mind? Or do they live in a fear that words once thrown, like stones, can create ripples in the water? I have been thinking of how honest people actually are, when I got the news that honesty is a flexible term and can be moulded according to the situation or circumstance. As I rode my two Wheeler to office today, I looked around on the street and saw 'dishonest' people. Where are they going? What are they going to say next which may not be honest? I was infuriated at the thought that at some point of time I can also be 'dishonest'. So what is honesty? Should people be explicit with their feelings to be considered honest? A friend who comes dressed like a Fashion disaster wouldn't want to hear the words circulating in your head. So you say nice things to her like, oh what a lovely dress! But do you really mean it? Most often NO. Then are we being truthful? We two people fall in love, it is an amazing feeling. We...