XCENTRIC-ANGEL

I am in love. In love with a boy who looks like an angel. A boy for whom I waited so long to find. He makes me laugh, he makes me cry. He makes me feel like a woman, he makes me feel like a stranger. He says he loves me, and then he says that he wants to be free. He says he wants to be with me every moment, and he stays away when he wants to. My heart heaves and cries for long hours in the nights. It feels like my heart has been torn out. I feel so alone though he is so near. He makes me want to be the best I could ever be, but he also makes me green with envy. The feelings I have for him are so strong, but sometimes I feel they are all wrong. I wait all day long just to hear his voice, but the call never comes. We fight like we are a perfect miss match, but when I see him smile I don't remember anything else. It is strange to feel such complicated feelings all for one person. Is he a devil disguised as an angel? Or an angel forced to be evil? He tortures me so much with his words...

I close my eyes days go by I see white magick! I dont know why but it feels so true. It is very cold I want someone to hold But I see this white magick. It fills me with a sense of warmth a sense of being close and connected. The heavens are finally ready to open! I open my eyes slowly I first see it first, tiny and small A speck of white dust twirling in the wind dancing its way to me. I twirl along with it closer and closer it comes bigger and bigger it gets Made up of design so divine I beg for it not to melt, I sigh. I close my eyes again And I feel the sun scorch my face I open my eyes to the dessert I lay parched in the hot sand My mouth dry and split my last breath on my lips Strangely, there is no worry in my heart. I close my eyes and see the white magick again falling slowly from the heavens falling on my face falling on my finger tips Tiny specks of dust with a design divine White magick of the heavens my Snowflake in the dessert Sun!